Insanity

I've been gone a LONG time! Yikes! A lot has happened since I've blogged. I've gained some weight (sad face) , I got divorced (another sad face), and not I'm going back to school! (Yay face!)

I'm thinking I need to get back into the habit of blogging. It made me accountable to myself at the end of the day. I got down to a size 8, and I was comfortable there. I'm now back into 12's and they're getting tight! I know it does NOT help that I work fast food, but I am in school and hoping to rectify that situation soon. I'm going into nursing and hoping to end up in a career as an LPN. I'll be too busy to snack all day. Right now I'm trying to figure out how I can afford to go to school full time, so I can get out of working fast food as soon as possible. I also need to look into learning a new coping mechanism. When I'm mad, I eat. When I'm stressed, I eat. It's not a good cycle for a single mom, with four kids, that's working and going to school.

I've already made the first step by backing off soda again. I let myself get hopelessly addicted to diet coke again, but I've slowed down, a lot lately. I spent about a week without pop to break the craving, and I limit myself to one a day now. Next, I need to figure out how to move more. I know I'm not getting enough exercise to lose weight. I need to find some me time and get sweaty everyday! I'm working on controlling my portions again too. I'm not very good at dieting, I don't know why, but being ON A DIET makes me hungry! But I am also working on eating less at each setting. I'm telling myself, again, that it's okay to leave food on my plate when I'm done. I guess it's a blessing to have a 12 year old boy that's a bottomless pit? He'll eat mom's leftovers in a heartbeat! Ha ha. They're small steps, and I don't want to take them all too fast, because I'm worried that I'll get overwhelmed and give up. I want to lose about 30 or 40 pounds. That will put me back where I felt great, and looked okay to.

I missed my blog, and I'm hoping to post more regularly now.
Wish me luck!

Back in the saddle again.

I moved back in August, and I haven't blogged since then. Things have really gone downhill weight wise. My stress, while still there, is less than it ever was in Germany. But now I eat out more, because I can, and things have gone from bad to worse. My clothes are tight again, and I hate that. My husband's coming home in 18 days, and the holidays are right around the corner, so it's going to be tough, but I can do it. With Paul home I'll be able to exercise some more, and that will help. I've also requested that my church start thinking about offering low cost aerobics or exercise classes with child care for the women in the area. I could probably afford either or, but I can't hack gym membership fees and a sitter. I also found this great new website. (www.weightlossbuddy.com) You can sign up for free, and they have some really neat tools that I think will help. You can also become a premium member for 40 bucks a year. I'm gonna give the free memebership a go and see what happens. I might treat myself to a premium membership for Christmas or something. I've got their calendar thing going, and left myself some wiggle room. I would like to lose 2 to 3 pounds a week. I'm really hoping this will help keep me on track. I lose focus easily, and I need help staying motivated. This site also connects you to other people trying to lose weight. You have the option to be "buddies" through email, over the phone, or in person. I wanted to get the word out, because there aren't many women in my area that have signed up for it, and those who have haven't logged in for months now. Even so, the neat little tools are worth checking it out.

Well, I'm offically starting over at 276.0 (one pound down from yesterday!) I hope those of you out there that were reading and commenting now, will come back again. You encouraged me and helped me when I'd had a bad week. Thanks so much for your support! Sarah